It's not like any of this hasn't bugged me before, but it just really hit me today.
I went over to Amy's house with Erika, and they were baking bread from scratch. Her mom was helping both of them to make it and showing them all the little secrets to making it amazing. And it just totally hit me that...I don't have anyone to show me these things.
And well,In theory-- someday I'm going to have children too. And They're gonna want ME to show them how to cook, or how to sew, or all the little cleaning secrets, or how to do whatever it is that mothers are supposed to teach their daughters.
And I'm not going to know how.
It just kills me.
I wish there was someone to teach me all these things, and I always feel so lost because I don't know how to do any of the "womanly" things that chicks are supposed to do
Amy's mom was helping me the other day with my make-up, like my foundation and WhatNot;I felt so embarrassed.
I always feel like such a bum when everyone else has to teach me stuff. I mean, It's not like I'm their kid and they probably think i'm like mentally retarded or something because everyone else in the world seems to know how to do this stuff, But I dont.
I don't know how to cook. Well, I do. I cook everynight practically...But I tend to burn just about everything.
And whats going to happen when I grow up and my kids are expecting their mom to cook them dinner? Are they going to just eat burnt hamburgers and macaroni everynight for their whole life?
I don't know how to do my nails properly. I go to friend's houses and their sitting there using nail files and beautifully painting their nails and I just don't know how to do that. I was never taught.
I feel like a lost puppy.
I've thought about this stuff before, but never like this. I've never cried over any of it, I've never put that much thought into it.
I don't even know what i'm going to be when I grow up. Mom was supposed to help me decide.
But I'm horrified of how things are going to turn out. I shouldn't be allowed to grow up, There should be a law that Margie has to stay young because she doesn't know how to be a grown-up.And I'm not going to be able to teach or help anyone anything because I don't know anything to start with.
THE END.
2 comments:
You are only 16 Margie. You have lots of time to figure all of that stuff out. It doesn't matter if you can't cook or paint your nails correctly, you'll get better in time. Trust me, it'll be okay. <3
well, it doesn't hurt to start learning things now. and from eavescommenting, amber says you're only 16! that's PLENTY of time :]
i feel your pain girl! SHOOT... i already had an agreement with my neighbor's mother that she'll do my make up on my first REAL date!
it sucks to not really have someone but we can break that chain and we can be there for our kids when we're much older :}
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