uh, wonder woman?

haha, so yea its been...
a long time since i've posted a blog.

EXACTLY one month and a day.
bahaha,

so..
mah' baddd.

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uhm, so i've been thinkin bout my momma a whole bunch's lately.
i just miss her so much.
and everything's just so messed up now,
i hate it.

i honestly just want things to go back to how they used to be.

i want to be able to have a NORMAL conversation with my dad, without getting in some big stupid fight.

..i want my dad to be proud of me, and for him to not think I'm this horrible person that I'm sure he thinks i am.

and i want my mom,
here.
i'm tired of living without her, i dont know how much longer i can take this.
how did i come along this far without her?
how can ANYONE live knowing their mom is dead?
its just too much to handle.
and i hate it.

February 4th.
gahh i hate that date.
and its going to be showing its nasty little face around here soon.

It will be Two years
two WHOLE years...
on that day,

I hate being sad and crappp.
this sucks.
and theres absolutely nothing i can do about it,
things are the way they are.
she's gone.


i can't change that.
and thats what i hate the most...
i hate not being able to change things,
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when i grow up...
I'm going to be wonder woman,
i swear.
and i'm gonna change the world.
i will.
just watch me,




THE END.